Hey. You know... I don't know you at all... and sorry for the random message, but I just feel there are some things you should know. I don't mean to cause any problems, and I don't want you to be mad and take things out on !@#$. I know messaging you puts the relationship, or lack thereof, that I have with !@#$ in jeopardy... and for me to loose !@#$ all together would be the end of my world, it seems.This summer has been the best and worst summer of my life. Last semester when I started talking to !@#$ again I thought the summer was great. I was under the impression that things were going great. He at one time promised that if things were still going great we could get back together, officially, once he graduated. Graduation finally came around and we didn't really get back together. Sometime later we got together... but he wouldn't really tell anyone about us so I just kind of called it off.
All summer we were on and off. He told me he was frustrated with me. I get worried and stressed about him and I easily. He said that when I could relax and have a fun relationship we could be together. He didn't really realize that I was stressed and worried because of you. I knew about you all summer. I knew that he wanted to be in a relationship with you. What I didn't know all summer was that you two were actually together. How can a girl have fun and relax when she knows there is someone else...
August first could have been the highlight of my summer. Cory, !@#$'s brother... just in case you didn't know for some reason, bitched at !@#$ when I said something about him dating you. We all thought he was making the right choice by breaking up with you. His family doesn't approve of you at all. And trust me... they know about you. Him and !@#$'s mom are kind of close. He asked me out that afternoon... officially. I was so happy. I made the biggest mistake of my life by breaking up with !@#$ last year. Honestly, if I regret anything in my life, it was breaking up with him the first time. We had a great weekend. I heard you saw the pictures of us kissing. Sorry you had to find out that way. But I'm sure it could be worse. !@#$ told me he had sex with you right to my face.
Dating him isn't all its cracked up to be. I've known him for three years. He is no longer very good at lying to me. I knew he made up with you and you two started dating again the day after it happened. I didn't say anything about it to him until last Monday. I knew as soon as I said something to him about you it would be over for him and I, but I guess its a risk I had to take. People are right when they say I deserve better than him. But he is all I want. Even after all that happened this summer.
This one message can't even begin to describe the ups and downs of this summer. I hope I don't make you too upset. All I can do I suppose is encourage you to think things over or talk to me more before you say something to !@#$ if you choose to do so. !@#$ has treated us both unfairly. He asks me to keep my mouth shut when it comes to telling you what I know... but if I were you I would want to know, as much as it hurts. The reason I've waited so long has to do with the fact that !@#$ means the world to me... and for anything bad to happen to him as a result of this message would cause a lot of regret on my end. He isn't as honest with you as he should be partly because of the whole sex thing.
We don't really talk anymore. I really wish for him to be my friend, cause he is my best friend. I'm terrified that telling you all this will ruin what I have with him... but I would hope if he finds out about this message, he would forgive me over time. Please Please Please consider talking to me about all of this before you get pissed at !@#$. I hate to say bad things about !@#$... but he is good at lying his way out of things. I know you don't know me, and don't really have a reason to believe me... but honestly, I'm just sticking up for us girls.
You're gorgeous, and just like me, deserve much better, I'm sure. Please let me know if you want to know any more... or have questions... or just want to talk about anything. I may be !@#$'s ex, but that aside I'm a nice person... I promise. You can message me here, or you can c/t ######2937. -Melissa
